you never get what you ask for or expected? try not expecting when you ask.

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    Asking begets expectancy, when you ask for something specific from someone you keep looking up at every corner expecting excitedly for that, I mean every corner`, turn, mail, news. Every time every day. Time brings in frustration you get sad and mad at both yourself and the person you asked. History shows us that nothing really happens like a movie script life plays it own with its own fingers. So often than never we are bothered and depressed in expectancy of what never really get to happen 80% of the time. I have been an immense victim.

•          Recently I didn’t ask for anything well partly cos I was ashamed but amazingly that became my happy week. I was really happy for once in a long while I saw the tunnel light , felt some dreams staring at me from a distance. It was amazing . still hoping to meet up with them someday. I didn’t expect not that I gave up but I was just blank on worries. I want to learn how not to expect its sounds insane and impossible not to expect after putting hopes on something but if that is all it takes its worth it.